Not all forms of art are on paper. Some are hand crafted by the spirit that is inside us. I use different elements and techniques of art in my paintings compared to my dances. Dancing is another type of art I deeply cherish. It is raw and loving. It is all heart and soul. It channels the heart into body movements.
I found improv to be a way to channel myself into a different world, but it definitely can be one of my weaknesses. When I dance alone in my room, it does not compare to having to improve in front of others. I have not professionally trained in dance since I was in 5th grade so I am very insecure about my technique. I never quite got the hang of improv. I definitely have felt like I can’t do it, especially when there are people around. I get scared and lack the confidence in myself. I’m always afraid my best will not be good enough. However, I’ve learned there really is no right or wrong way to do improv. Dance is how I feel better. It is not a competition. It is my heart, and insecurity will not stop me from moving.
Today I tried something a little different. I asked my friend to take the camera and just record what happens when I press play on the music. This video is in its rawest form. It’s me being vulnerable on camera, ill prepared and lacking technique. I am usually very insecure about my movements, but here, I’m trying not to care. I am still of course very analytical, but here I am just flowing with the song. Dance has never been a competition for me, but an outlet to release stress and emotions. In this video, I am just moving and grooving. I want to do so much more with dance and the arts. I’m trying to make time for it when I can. It’s hard to balance things in life but the arts is a must for me.
I’m sharing this video despite my deepest fears of showing parts of myself that I’m not always public about. It can be scary sharing what I love and what I do. However, breaking out of my comfort zone to showcase myself step by step has felt wonderful, and I don’t want to stop now. I hope you enjoy.
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